Wrap Up...

ya u can take from the tile of wat this entry is gonna b about...let's see...we'll start from last january... well, school is about a little more than half-way over...i have just gotten a really sweet bf...his name was kyle (he's not dead, i say was bcuz he moved to iowa)...i gained a bunch of new friends and everything seems pretty good...i have just come out of my dark days (this was wen i was young, stupid and naive) i thought i was depressed, i only wore dark colors, didn't feel good most of the time, i pretty much stopped trying to look good, so i would wear a sweatshirt and jeans...and then once i got together with kyle, everything got better, i started trying again and got outta my "dark days"...but wen i gained him, i lost my best friend, c i would always ask him out for her, and he would always say no...and i secretly liked him...so he told me he was moving in april and then my friend asked him out for me and he said yes...so i lost a friend kinda...we just weren't close anymore...then that same friend started this eating disorder thing and it turns out she lied and was eating at home...and just little happenings like that til the end of the year, i got really sick after that and never got the color back in my face since then...anyways moving on...we thought those little troubles were horrible and the end of the worldish...ya were we DEAD wrong...so summer came, and i stayed home alone for the whole thing...bored...cuz all my neighborhood is preps or little little kids...so i just stayed inside, i went here and there but mostly stayed at home...the summer went by fast and slow...then all of a sudden school was the next day...this year was last minute shopping and my mother getting angry cuz they didn't have the right things for on the list...and then school started...some of my friends were split up into different houses...so we're not as close anymore cuz we have nothing to talk about...then the first week went by and it already felt like a month and a half...i soon found out that a friend of mine was in a gang and i learned more and more until i was in danger...so they protected me...i slowly drifted away from him tho...we fought and he didn't forgive me for things that i don't even know that i did...and then my bf, justin (long distance) broke up w/ my bcuz of a picture...ya that hit home...and thats wen i became depressed and guess wat he said he loved me and he lied the whole time...this is wat made me depressed...then we met turner;] and got to know turner a lot...and now we're helping get thro life as best he can...even tho he reluctantly tells us wat goes on w/ his life...but i thank u...u need to let us care;] so ya...and here i am...still broken, depressed, and suicidal a bit (but too chicken, cuz i'm afraid of wat i'll miss) and single...tho some ppl have asked me out i said yes but realized that i wasn't happy and on too much of a emotional roller coaster for anyone who didn't know wat was wrong had to deal w/...so this is where my saga ends...where i meet a bunch of new ppl who are cool and slightly diabolic...and a new crush on another person who's moving, this time farther away...i'm glad i'm in this mess i call my life tho...cuz it makes me the rockin' kick ass person i am;]...lol...jkjkjk but it makes the peculiar me, ME;]!!!!!!!! lots of love this end of 2007 and hello baby to 2008!
love all around to my fellow pears<3!!!
me<3 blessed holidays and
don't drink and drive!!!!!!!!