plz...someone help me

well...i am screwed...once again...and i don't think anyone can help me out this time...techno (the guy who i REALLY REALLY like) is most likely moving, to north carolina...and that's like 4 states away! and i still haven't met him...but i've made him feel like shit...and he's the traitor i told u bout earlier...*sighs* and i think he's really hurt...cuz he wasn't talking to me...like at all...and...and...i think he's really hurt(by me...he said he had to, he had to do it...but idk...i feel kinda bad) and ben...ben ben ben...he said he wouldn't meet me cuz i would probably kick his ass...and he kept testing me and testing me...like pretty much breaking turners arm...and...and he said that if i'm persuasive, he's screwed...cuz i asked him if i persuaded him to leave turner alone would he...and he said probably...we really need to meet him...and i freaked him out w/ my background check and i told him about my plan if anything "accidentally" made turner "fall asleep" that he would have dire consequences...and he understood very well...sry this is more to calley than any other random person so ya...and i made a deal with him on the fone (cuz i had one of those breathing attacks that i get)...that he would stop hurting turner for the rest of the time while i was on the fone...and then i negotiated that he wouldn't hurt him until 20 minutes after i hung up...and i said not a second before...and i told techno to watch him...i shoulda done at least an hour...i'm an idiot! i coulda done probably two hours...damn it!!!!!! (sry more to myself) and then ben said he'd mutilate turner the second the 20 minutes were up...and i don't think turner was that grateful...but i tried to buy him a little more time to recover from popped ribs and a broken arm...i need to call them...ok u wanna know wat seriosuly is creepy...i called turners house earlier and guess who picks up...BEN and turner didn't even pick up the damn fone...i mean come on! and they were on the fone this morning and they won't hack my fone anymore tho...at least thats wat they say...o n ik how ben got my number...c wen turner was knocked out, a piece of paper fell out and it had my cell and home # on it and he just put it in his fone...ya...and i talked to aaron...he's doing good, his shoulder just kinda aches...he's fine and dandy to beat on turner tho...along w/ angel...oh oh oh and guesss wat they did today...they played HOCKEY!!! all against one...and guess who that lucky one was? turner of course, that lucky ducky...i told ben we weren't coming on monday so that maybe he'll come and we'll say that we won't come to turner so that he won't tell ben to leave...id think turner realizes that i can make ben leave him alone does he...and probably angel too...*Sighs* they all lack logic...i'm gonna apologize to techno tomorrow...and ben said he'd explain things to me l8r...but i can't member wat they are...my god damn memory...it blanks out at the stupidest times, like a MAJORLY important times...hmmm let me see is there anything else that i need to update u on...o they think i need to go to the hospital more than turner...lol...they say i should get my breathing thing checked out...but w/e i'm living, and slightly breathin its all good (for now, calley don't hit me...and don't b a hypocrite...cuz uk ur doing the same thing...*gives u very skeptical look*) we need to c them anyone of them we need to at least meet one...cuz thats all it'll take to get things to work better for turner...is if i can persuade him *him/them, meaning anyone from the "dark side"* to leave him alone or go lighter on his sentence...just ANYTHING...we gotta try anything and EVERYTHING we have...we got to...we just got to...if you have any solutions for me...plz comment...would be FOREVER grateful...lots of love around this fucked up world...
peace bloggsters
me<3
(or wats left of me<3 anyways)