OMG!!!!

Okay...
u seriously have to be kidding me...i have a cold...this is...not even gonna say how screwy this is...grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i can't beleave it!...i haven't gotten sick since Brit scared us with not eating and i got so sick and lost all the color outta my face and it never really came back...and i'm pale in the first place...great!!!...
i'm already the walking dead as it is...*sighs*...and somehow it doesn't feel like christmas, not one bit...and i think it makes depressed and emo people feel even more alone then they already are...i guess it's just too happy for us...i just put my tree up like literately two days ago...and i've maybe, MAYBE heard 20 christmas songs tops this whole season...wow, i feel like the grinch and scrooge put together into one...except at least they had a happy ending...yes, they did have happier endings...my parents are for watever reason becoming more stricter on my fone...and they want me to be isolated because?!?!?!?!?!?...well...they're good parents i guess just that their rules suck...they're lucky i have more than two friends, like my childhood...and yet i was a happy kid back then...its not my friends now that made me this way...it's just that i've had traumatic and painful experiences...that i will, sadly, never forget...all around...i just wish i could skip christmas and all the happy...cuz my head can't go back to positive, no matter how hard i try...i'm stuck in a funk forever...i'm sry if you read this and get sad on christmas...merry christmas and happy holidays!!!
lots of love to you all...
me<3