life...

my life is at the all time low and i don't think it'll ever go back up...my friend sent me a letter that scared the hell outta me, i thought i was gonna die (sry if that makes u feel guilty, not meant to be) my other friend has a death wish (they both do but one more than the other) my other friend is moving and he's probably gonna run away if he ever sees me...so ya...my life pretty much is even worse than hell itself...cuz everyone i hold near and dear is going away, or wants to...and i was informed that they don't wanna meet us...its great uk...that feeling of being unwanted...u understand it the first time cuz the first time it hits home...then it comes back around to hit u by surprise...the feeling of worthlessness and despair about being able to do nothing to help anybody, not even urself...wow i haven't cried like this in awhile...sry...ya...love is war and pain...and so is life...id see wats so good about either, they all cause pain for ppl like me...but i guess its all the happy ppl who say its the best feeling u'll ever experience...well then they should just go on w/ their happy care-free lives and live the way they were meant to...love to everyone ho ik...ur all special to me...never leave me...plz i couldn't bear it...
l8r i guess
me<3