hey!!!

so ya sry i haven't really written anything in here for awhile...i've just been really busy:
trying to get unsick-trying to breathe-trying to make my effing stomach stop hurting-trying to figure out which one of the god damn guys i'm talking to (they all sound the same!!!)-trying to be right (even more than usual)-trying to meet them-trying to learn to sing (cuz i suck)-trying to convince calley of many things;]-trying to keep up w/ all my other blogs-trying to live-trying to get past the pain-trying to get up some guts-and right now i'm trying not to throw up...that's how nice i am, i'll talk to u while i have the urge to regurgitate food;] ain't that great!-trying to be funny (see sentence b4)-trying not to get anymore ppl pissed at me for calling them wusses (opps been spelling that wrong in doodle, my bad:) -trying to be smarticle (yes and i think i need the help cuz i just said smarticle)-trying not to cry 24/7 is also a big one-trying not to miss them:\...which is impossible...cuz they're all so great (some more than others)-trying not to think about death (ya that's not working for me so screw that)-trying to drink my sprite so i won't regurgitate (OOOHHHHHHHH 4 syllables!!!!!!!!!!! I WIN, not really but thats ok!)-trying not to laugh at the word ponder (ya i can't do that one;] its impossible!!!!!)-trying to walk to DQ so i could meet them (that isn't working tho)-trying to walk normally after getting my boot off;] i can run and sprint fine, i jut walk funny...that's not ironic now is it?!-trying to have revelations (i sadly haven't had one in a while...ALSO FOUR!!!!)-trying not to get overexcited (as u can c thats also pretty much impossible)-trying to be happy and have hope (well...ya thats probably gonna b a long time thing so ya)-and trying (this is the last one so drum roll in ur head or on ur computer or ur friends a$$...OK JKJKJKJKJKJK about that one!) trying to write in this blog;]...ok i'm done now...c how busy i am?!?!?!? ikr...lol sry i was just being stupid but those are still all true...ok to the real post:
ya i miss them a lot...atleast all of them but one came back:\...and guess wat he came back and then went away again...and this happens to b the one who i like a lot too!...and ben, he's such a sweety and ik turner u'll say he's evil and diabolic, and he is sometimes but he can also be really sweet...u can't deny it, he's come to check on u wen the angels are after him...ya calley that does sound really messed up;] but, ya...he's starting to grow on me...so has angel...he's also very sweet...he's hilarious too and he's also growing on me...well techno since the first time he talked to me i liked him...so ya...danny has actually gotten half way for me...i still don't like that he's a cousin to u and he's trying to make u n everyone else that we know "sleep"...ya i'm not to cool w/ that...that doesn't roll very well w/ me...but i'll b able to persuade him sometime soon...the more i talk to him, which i have a strange feeling that i will...idk if thats good or bad...and yes i do have the guts to call u a wuss,wat u gonna do to me!? u didn't even yell/scream/threaten me...u w/ ur endless pocket pants i swear...i wonder wat u can all fit in those things!...but w/e...and jamie,...jamie, jamie, jamie...wat r we going to say about u...hmmm ya i also have the guts to call u a wuss...but ik u probably wouldn't do anything to me...ya n ben n turner n calley n mb techno but idt i told him...but ya sry for kinda almost meeting jamie on thursday...and don't hurt me *crouches in a corner behind a couch w/ a white flag up and some candy (tootsie rolls, calley lol!)* ya turner at skool in the morning it looked like u wanted to murder me...and calley had the same look except she had the expression of "WTF R U THINKING KID!!!!!!!" in w/ her glaringness;] ya i quickly ran away...lol it was funny tho, i think i was laughing while running away (AHHH don't hit me says to u guys right now)...and i really don't get y u n i think ben n other ppl don't want me or calley coming to ur house...its not bad i could persuade them plus i'm always ready w/ a plan and i have stuff that i could defend myself w/...no really i swear...i just need to find out wat danny's tactics are...hmmm let me think who i'd forget outta them...aaron isnt around much so ya...got all of em...and calley i hope ur feeling better w/ sleep and breathing (gives look) and everything...i miss u and luv ya hunny! ty for being such a great friend! and turner u too be safe! and love to all them crazy boys we talk top calley;] its kinda sad that they're the only ones that we talk to all the time...that makes me laugh;] well lots of love to everyone! hey barfing sensation gone! YYYYYEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok i'm done now:)
l8r ghostinators (ghost-in-a-tor...i thought u normal ppl might need help;] )
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